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One of my goals for the new semester is to work on my physical appearance. Out of all the goals a person can set for themselves, that probably sounds so shallow, but I’ve really let my care for my appearance go down the shitter.

I remember how shocked my father was last year when I got off the airplane wearing cow pajamas. It was actually my father that pushed me into Rock and Republic denim. When your own Asian father tells you you need to work on your appearance, you must really look like a hobo.

Because I have a makeup themed Youtube channel, close minded people will automatically assume that I’m the type of person who relies on makeup, spends hours to get ready everyday, don’t have the courage to step outside without painting my face. All that could not be further from the truth. If I’m lucky, I’ll wear makeup 2 days out of the week. Repeating, if I’m lucky… Most days, I’m bare faced. When you’ve only gotten 3 hours of sleep, the last thing you want to do is paint over your droopy face. If I’m not going to dress up my face then what’s the point of dressing up my body either, so I gravitate to the sweats, hoodies, and sneakers.

Over time, I think my confidence has died as well. When I was in high school, I NEVER wore neutral makeup. I was off in my own little world and didn’t care what people thought of me. Just recently, I was organizing my clothes and found some articles of clothing that I would never have the balls of wearing today. There are people who I went to high school with who can testify that I walked around wearing stripper-esque clothing and dark black full blown smokey eyes, oblivious that it’s not “acceptable”.

As I started growing up and being exposed to the “real world”, I had to learn how to apply “proper” makeup… neutral looks. As I was wearing the neutral looks more and more, I strayed away from the bright and bold, losing the confidence to rock them. The neutral looks and plain clothing became safe. It’s gotten so bad that I think I’ve been typcasted into only doing neutral looks on my Youtube channel. “I didn’t know you wore color”… That’s depressing.

The science and engineering field of study is still dominated by men, and I think it’s natural for a lot of females to not want to stick out more than they already do with lipsticks and heels. I’ve become used to wanting to blend in with the crowd. The sad reality of it is that a lot of people will assume that if spent some effort on your appearance, that you must be some bimbo. Unfortunately, as people grow older, it’s sort of inevitable to care about how others perceive you.

I went from dressing up everyday to barely at all. When I make the effort to dress up, I get, “Are you going somewhere special today?” when it used to be “So… you were too lazy today that you didn’t bother to dress up?”. It’s quiet embarrassing. It’s like I’ve already let myself go, at a really young age!

My econ teacher brought up an interesting subject. Shoe shine businesses aren’t all that common because people just aren’t dressing up anymore. Remember the days when men wore nice suits and women fancy dresses wherever they went? Society today tends to demonize vanity but there’s nothing wrong with dressing ourselves up and looking nice. It’s still expected that we groom ourselves and wear deodorant, but that’s not necessary for survival now is it?

I admire people who have the confidence to set themselves away from the crowd and not care about what people have to say. Like Dita Von Teese who looks perfect everywhere she goes. Or… xppinkxx! Her outfits are always so fierce and I envy her courage to pull them off so well. Bold lips, bold eyes, latex leggings, who the hell cares right?

… easier said than done. We will try…

It itches and stings like hell. I had to go to the pharmacy to get some anti-itch cream. With the big one, you can see the center is slightly more elevated. That’s where the bastard had me.

I’m furious and taking this to anyone willing to hear me rant!!

I will also mention my good customer service experiences today, but if you want to skip to the juicy part, it’s going to be underlined

Got a haircut at a new salon today with a new stylist and she and the salon were all very awesome. I was very happy I found a great stylist/salon and was happy with the cut too!

I then went to Sephora because the MUFE HD foundation I got ended up being too light. I was matched, and it looked alright at the time, but it wad during the evening time so when I finally noticed how it looked like in natural light, it was too light. I had ordered the foundation through the store the first time because they didn’t have the color in stock. I wanted to exchange for a darker shade but they also didn’t have the color in stock so there was a lot of difficult exchanging and ordering going on, but the SA who helped me was very nice and helpful. She was also very nice when helping me color match the right foundation color.

Then I want to Abercrombie and Fitch… Actually, it wasn’t that bad at first. I was looking for a shirt and this one SA was wearing what I wanted. I asked her if they still carry it and she located the area for me. She also got a big ladder, went up, and found my size because they didn’t have my size on the bottom. She was very friendly the whole time and I ended up getting two shirts.

I just go up after the person behind me tells me to and he tells me,
“I asked you if you needed help”. I tell him, “I said I needed to be ringed up”. “What?” he says thanks to the loud music. “I said I needed to be ringed up” I repeated. I didn’t have an attitude or anything, just a little loud to compensate for the music. Being tired in line, I just wanted to hurry up, get out of there. Then he tells me, “It’s rung up. You said you needed to be “ringed”. It’s rung.”. “…Sorry…” I say. He replies, “Just trying to help you there” in a super arrogant tone. This jerk has the overall tone and attitude like that of the guys on MAD TV. I know it’s a spoof, but no joke, that’s exactly how he was like. When I first say this skit, I thought it was funny because it was the stereotype of what Abercrombie is like, but I never experienced anything like it until now:

Once I got home, I called. I’m not optimistic in anything coming out of it since the CS rep seemed nonchalant about it, especially when I mentioned that I started having bitter feelings about the Abercrombie brand itself due to such service from a store manager. She told me that I shouldn’t let the rudeness of one employee hold me back from shopping at Abercrombie. Don’t you realize that employees represent the company and brand? Totally unapologetic, actually rushing me when I told my story because I guess I was being too detailed and specific. I was mentioning additional details like tone and attitude (not mentioning the MAD TV skits of course) while I was explaining about the conversation, and she interrupted me asking, “And what was his reply?”. I actually wasn’t as detailed as I am on here. I was able to explain in the same manner as I did with the MAC MA and she listened…

Oh, and I also mentioned the helpful SA in case you were wondering.

Worst customer service experience ever. I know I wrote about a horrible CS experience with Ulta once on here, but usually when I experience rudeness, it was never so obvious, blunt, and direct like that.

Me on the macbook, Kenji somewhere nearby.